Wow, the year is almost coming to an end huh? It seems like everytime december comes, I find myself sitting back and reminiscing about all the shit I went through during that year. We're no longer in the 08s, 09s.. We're hittin the 10s LOL.
Anyways, finally starting my training with RGIS this upcoming tuesday. I was beginning to get worried because they called me a couple days ago TWICE and I didn't call them back. Only reason was because my dumb phone got disconnected and I couldn't make any outgoing calls, but I could receive them.. How utterly ghetto. But yeh the next day, my phone was working again and I was calling them back all day yet apparently NO ONE knew how to pick up the company's damn phone. Like wtf.. How you gonna try and run a company and not even answer your calls? So I found myself heading to the office myself to talk to them in person. It was kinda creepy because when I got there I kept knocking on the door and instead I heard some angry mumbling coming from the other side of the door. As a test, I went down the hallway and called them and I actually heard the phone ringing coming from inside of that room! LOL. The angry voice started speaking to me and it was the dude I had an interview with. He had NO CLUE I was actually outside, but I didn't even tell him I was there. I just acted like I was at home and was like "Should I come in?" and he jz told me I didn't have to cuz my training was gonna be at the mall instead. So yes I did find myself travelling all that way for nothing, but at least I know now where I'm training.
With school, things are getting more and more complicated. One of the classmates that everyone in my class has a problem with, is starting to get on MY nerves. She is nice but then again I find it so annoying when she starts talking. Everytime Ms. Murphy tells us about something, she seems to have something to say. It's just really annoying ugh.. But, on the bright side, I am passing with flying rainbow colors LOL. I only have 3 classes but I have a 96 in one and 100 in the other two! Very satisfied, coming from someone who HATES school.(:
OOH! && the holidays are just around the corner. I still have to do some last minute shopping with him on Monday to get his grandparents & his mom a gift. He already got something for them but I feel like I should contribute since they're so nice to me and treat me as apart of their family. I also have to order his freaking gift! Hopefully it comes in time for me to wrap it up and surprise him. I'm gonna just wrap a plain box first to fool him and bring the surprise later LOL.
NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS:
-Put aside some money to SAVE, for the hell of it.
-Get my license already!
-Start planning for my 21st birthday (;
-Finish school, & look for a REAL job in the medical field to do my externship.
-Get some glasses/contacts.
SUPERFICIAL RESOLUTIONS LOL:
-Shop for a new wardrobe
-Change my hair
MM, yeh I'll add to the resolution list when I can think of some more. But that's pretty much it. Not much happening lately. So I'll jz end it here with a HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE <3
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Sooner Than Later
Soo lately I've been a pretty happy camper! I'm currently going through a training session where I'm spose to be an auditor/inventory specialist with a company called RGIS. After what the interviewer told me, it seems like a pretty laid back and easy job, especially for me. I told them I'm free to work early mornings, which is exactly the availability they're looking for. Just a couple more training sessions, and I can officially work with them! And plus, it's T-accessible, which means me not driving is not a problem (:
With school, it's been pretty good. Sometimes I feel like I'm in high school again with the drama between my classmates, but at least I'm cool with everyone. So it doesn't really affect me. Speaking of which, one of my classmates Erika has the same bday as me! That's kinda freaky but it's funny how life brings people together. Me and her have been pretty close ever since she got to the school, and it's just weird because we never even knew we shared the same bday. && she was talking about how we shud throw a hall party together. Well I'm still thinkin about it, so I'm not so sure yet because I kinda wanna go on a cruise with my booskies.
My latest obsession with makeup came back. I been constantly online looking up different makeup techniques, specifically with eyeshadow blending. Sometimes I wonder if that's what I really wanna do, but with the way the economy is goin, it's not a wise choice.
&& finally, christmas is coming soon! I feel as I get older, there's not much to look forward to. It just depends on who you choose to spend your time with. Hopefully, this year will be a great christmas. (;
Btw, Erika Davis is a cutie, I love her look and her videos:
With school, it's been pretty good. Sometimes I feel like I'm in high school again with the drama between my classmates, but at least I'm cool with everyone. So it doesn't really affect me. Speaking of which, one of my classmates Erika has the same bday as me! That's kinda freaky but it's funny how life brings people together. Me and her have been pretty close ever since she got to the school, and it's just weird because we never even knew we shared the same bday. && she was talking about how we shud throw a hall party together. Well I'm still thinkin about it, so I'm not so sure yet because I kinda wanna go on a cruise with my booskies.
My latest obsession with makeup came back. I been constantly online looking up different makeup techniques, specifically with eyeshadow blending. Sometimes I wonder if that's what I really wanna do, but with the way the economy is goin, it's not a wise choice.
&& finally, christmas is coming soon! I feel as I get older, there's not much to look forward to. It just depends on who you choose to spend your time with. Hopefully, this year will be a great christmas. (;
Btw, Erika Davis is a cutie, I love her look and her videos:
Friday, November 27, 2009
Somebody to Love
Sigh, so lately I have been MIA for whats been about 3 wks. I don't know why I'm doing this actually. I haven't even talked to my closest friends for 2 wks. Only because i want a break..
I guess I'm just trying to search really hard for what I want in my life. And don't get me wrong, my girls are great. But I don't think we're on the same page. They're still in that 'party' phase which I'm kinda over.
I've never been that crazy party girl, I've always been laid back or sitting at home doing something. But I'm happy with that. I'm content. I like sitting at his house with just me and him. We don't even have to be doing anything, he just makes me happy just being there..
But seriously, i need a job asap! Christmas is coming soon and I want a nice ending to this year.
I guess I'm just trying to search really hard for what I want in my life. And don't get me wrong, my girls are great. But I don't think we're on the same page. They're still in that 'party' phase which I'm kinda over.
I've never been that crazy party girl, I've always been laid back or sitting at home doing something. But I'm happy with that. I'm content. I like sitting at his house with just me and him. We don't even have to be doing anything, he just makes me happy just being there..
But seriously, i need a job asap! Christmas is coming soon and I want a nice ending to this year.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Tie Me Down
Hmm, so yes it’s been quite awhile since I last updated. & no, don’t be fooled by the song, it’s just really catchy and it’s been stuck in my head.
Family: Yday, or a couple hours ago, was my youngest brother Sam’s bday. He turns 4! & yes, I know a few heads are probably surprised that I have 2 younger brothers only because I don’t really talk about them but yeh. I miss him so much! If I could, I would take care of him here in Boston, but I’d need to put him in school. Sigh, the last time I seen my instant family was probably in January. Yes, sadly it’s almost been a year since I seen my mom. I heard she has a new boyfriend and he’s treating her really good, so that’s a big plus. & my little sis Tiffany, is doing pretty well herself. There’s nothing she can do that can make me more proud of her. She’s already a lieutenant in process of joining the NAVY, and she has told me that she is attending Harvard here in Boston, after she graduates high school. -smiles- I’m glad everyone is doing well and hopefully I can see them this Christmas, if not then during my school break?
Friends: I actually chose to isolate myself from a lot of my friends. Except the main ladies of course! It’s nothing bad though, I just want to focus on myself and other important things than catching up with what’s been going on with everyone else. So yes, I’m MIA for awhile until I’m ready to get back in action.
Boyfriend: Yes, we broke up a few times and got back together again. No surprise there hmm? This time, we’re trying to work things out and fix our problems. Things have been pretty good lately actually. & I’m finally glad to say that I’m feeling very content about us. I know a lot of people are wondering why our status is still single on face book. But that’s because we RECENTLY got back for like a week. So we’re taking things slowly to make sure nothing happens again.
School: You know, to be honest at first I hated school with a big fat passion, but as the months are flying by, it’s getting pretty easy. I am a fast learner after all. I’m constantly acing through every single test I take which is feeding my ego pretty well. & in the beginning I wasn’t even sure if I was in the right field. But now I know that this is what I want to do. & I’m happy I’m actually going to school. So for all of those who doubted that I would NEVER go back? You can suck my nonexistent nutss LOL. Soon to be graduate in July 2010!
Work: Yeh this has to be the most depressing category because a job doesn’t even exist in my life right now! I’m literally online and on Craig list every SINGLE day sending my resume and emailing places. I need a job asap! I’m not even sure how I’m gonna survive the next month or so without a job. So definitely the end of this week, I am going job hunting, even if it means I gotta go by myself. & plus I haven’t treated myself to a shopping spree since my last job in September. So hopefully, within the next wks or so, I will find a steady job.
Family: Yday, or a couple hours ago, was my youngest brother Sam’s bday. He turns 4! & yes, I know a few heads are probably surprised that I have 2 younger brothers only because I don’t really talk about them but yeh. I miss him so much! If I could, I would take care of him here in Boston, but I’d need to put him in school. Sigh, the last time I seen my instant family was probably in January. Yes, sadly it’s almost been a year since I seen my mom. I heard she has a new boyfriend and he’s treating her really good, so that’s a big plus. & my little sis Tiffany, is doing pretty well herself. There’s nothing she can do that can make me more proud of her. She’s already a lieutenant in process of joining the NAVY, and she has told me that she is attending Harvard here in Boston, after she graduates high school. -smiles- I’m glad everyone is doing well and hopefully I can see them this Christmas, if not then during my school break?
Friends: I actually chose to isolate myself from a lot of my friends. Except the main ladies of course! It’s nothing bad though, I just want to focus on myself and other important things than catching up with what’s been going on with everyone else. So yes, I’m MIA for awhile until I’m ready to get back in action.
Boyfriend: Yes, we broke up a few times and got back together again. No surprise there hmm? This time, we’re trying to work things out and fix our problems. Things have been pretty good lately actually. & I’m finally glad to say that I’m feeling very content about us. I know a lot of people are wondering why our status is still single on face book. But that’s because we RECENTLY got back for like a week. So we’re taking things slowly to make sure nothing happens again.
School: You know, to be honest at first I hated school with a big fat passion, but as the months are flying by, it’s getting pretty easy. I am a fast learner after all. I’m constantly acing through every single test I take which is feeding my ego pretty well. & in the beginning I wasn’t even sure if I was in the right field. But now I know that this is what I want to do. & I’m happy I’m actually going to school. So for all of those who doubted that I would NEVER go back? You can suck my nonexistent nutss LOL. Soon to be graduate in July 2010!
Work: Yeh this has to be the most depressing category because a job doesn’t even exist in my life right now! I’m literally online and on Craig list every SINGLE day sending my resume and emailing places. I need a job asap! I’m not even sure how I’m gonna survive the next month or so without a job. So definitely the end of this week, I am going job hunting, even if it means I gotta go by myself. & plus I haven’t treated myself to a shopping spree since my last job in September. So hopefully, within the next wks or so, I will find a steady job.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Ao Mong Tinh Yeu
I'm gonna do something a lil different by posting a "vietnamese" song lols.
Okay so lately, my main focus has been school. I didn't go in any day last wk but this wk I showed up every single day. I had madd work to make up so technically, after that wk I CAN'T afford to miss any more days. Well class has been keeping me on my feet. I'm actually proud of myself for once knowing that I chose this field because for one, the medical field is VERY difficult. It's not easy and there's a lot of school involved. But I guess with me I'm taking the easy way out. I'm going monday-thursday every week until the end of July.
Well one thing that is making me a little worried right now is my right hand. Recently, I think it was monday, where I hit my hand really hard against the pole and then my hand started aching as hell. What scares me is that it starts to ache a lot everytime I use to much strength in that hand. And there is a slight bump on the side of my hand along the pinky. It feels like a bone sticking out or something.. Yes it sounds nasty but isn't as bad as it looks. I think I might've fractured my hand -.- So I gotta remember to call my doctors and schedule an appt with them. & it freaks me out because I was researchin online about how to fix it and it might require stitches or staples! Hopefully it won't result to that >.<
Anyways, with my close friend that I mentioned before.. We're talking now. Well she called me and acted as if nothing happened. And told me that she can't be mad at me forever... Um okay, but I didn't do anything wrong. Whatever, I'm not gonna sweat it and jz drop it. After all, I have known her for about 5 years and that's her personality.
On another note, me and him are doing pretty good. I know sometimes he can be a little paranoid about me going out. He was like "You're in a relationship right now so why would you try and jeopardize it." But that was while we were having this conversation that I'm not gonna get into.
Okay so lately, my main focus has been school. I didn't go in any day last wk but this wk I showed up every single day. I had madd work to make up so technically, after that wk I CAN'T afford to miss any more days. Well class has been keeping me on my feet. I'm actually proud of myself for once knowing that I chose this field because for one, the medical field is VERY difficult. It's not easy and there's a lot of school involved. But I guess with me I'm taking the easy way out. I'm going monday-thursday every week until the end of July.
Well one thing that is making me a little worried right now is my right hand. Recently, I think it was monday, where I hit my hand really hard against the pole and then my hand started aching as hell. What scares me is that it starts to ache a lot everytime I use to much strength in that hand. And there is a slight bump on the side of my hand along the pinky. It feels like a bone sticking out or something.. Yes it sounds nasty but isn't as bad as it looks. I think I might've fractured my hand -.- So I gotta remember to call my doctors and schedule an appt with them. & it freaks me out because I was researchin online about how to fix it and it might require stitches or staples! Hopefully it won't result to that >.<
Anyways, with my close friend that I mentioned before.. We're talking now. Well she called me and acted as if nothing happened. And told me that she can't be mad at me forever... Um okay, but I didn't do anything wrong. Whatever, I'm not gonna sweat it and jz drop it. After all, I have known her for about 5 years and that's her personality.
On another note, me and him are doing pretty good. I know sometimes he can be a little paranoid about me going out. He was like "You're in a relationship right now so why would you try and jeopardize it." But that was while we were having this conversation that I'm not gonna get into.
Friday, October 16, 2009
Better Today
I am so fuckingg extremely pissed. Sigh! I hate it when people try to hold leverage over me and I can't do anything about it. It's just not fair. But whatever, shits in the past.
Anyhow, today is my aunt's birthday. But I didn't call her to wish her a good birthday or anything. Only because I'm still mad at her and what she did to me was fucked up! Who lies to their neice just to make her leave? Seriously, that shit was fucked up that I lost so much respect for her. W.e this was like 4 months ago but I hold grudges so.. Whatever happens happens.
On another note, I notice that everytime I check my account for my debit card, the numbers slowly get lower and lower. Definitely, needa job asap. I also needa go shopping soon for the winter season. Plus the holidays are coming soon. Well this blog was pretty pointless. I didn't really have much to say. Guess I'm off this.
Anyhow, today is my aunt's birthday. But I didn't call her to wish her a good birthday or anything. Only because I'm still mad at her and what she did to me was fucked up! Who lies to their neice just to make her leave? Seriously, that shit was fucked up that I lost so much respect for her. W.e this was like 4 months ago but I hold grudges so.. Whatever happens happens.
On another note, I notice that everytime I check my account for my debit card, the numbers slowly get lower and lower. Definitely, needa job asap. I also needa go shopping soon for the winter season. Plus the holidays are coming soon. Well this blog was pretty pointless. I didn't really have much to say. Guess I'm off this.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Vanished
Morning! This is morning to me since I just woke up LOL.
Things have been decent for the most part. The other day his parents came by and knocked down the wall on our floor. Everything is much more spacious now, and I'm excited to rearrange our living space. Before everything was so cramped up.
Halloween is also around the corner! And I still don't have a costume yet. Sherry is selling 2 so if it comes down to it that I still don't have anything, I guess I'll just buy them from her. I was surprised that he wanted us to having matching costumes. As cheesy as it sounds.. LOL. But i love the idea. I guess I kinda assumed that we would be doing our own thing because when parties come around, he's usually with his boys. Well people change, times have changed (;
& lately I been online looking for jobs. I like the fact that I'm not working early in the morning anymore, BUT i don't like how my money is decreasing! I checked my emails and I have 3 people that are interested in interviewing me. We'll see how that goes because this pause in my cash flow.. well i'm not liking it >:O
I needa grab a bite to eat, so I'ma update laterr. PCE! lol
Things have been decent for the most part. The other day his parents came by and knocked down the wall on our floor. Everything is much more spacious now, and I'm excited to rearrange our living space. Before everything was so cramped up.
Halloween is also around the corner! And I still don't have a costume yet. Sherry is selling 2 so if it comes down to it that I still don't have anything, I guess I'll just buy them from her. I was surprised that he wanted us to having matching costumes. As cheesy as it sounds.. LOL. But i love the idea. I guess I kinda assumed that we would be doing our own thing because when parties come around, he's usually with his boys. Well people change, times have changed (;
& lately I been online looking for jobs. I like the fact that I'm not working early in the morning anymore, BUT i don't like how my money is decreasing! I checked my emails and I have 3 people that are interested in interviewing me. We'll see how that goes because this pause in my cash flow.. well i'm not liking it >:O
I needa grab a bite to eat, so I'ma update laterr. PCE! lol
Thursday, October 8, 2009
I Need A Savior
Soo notice how I didn't have a video in my previous blog? Well, that's because I couldn't find one lol.
Lately, things have been pretty smooth. Needless to say I'm doing kinda "eh" in school. I skipped out on the 2nd and 3rd day, and I did it again yday because I felt LAZY. Not gonna happen today. I'm gonna make sure I get my butt to class if that's the last thing I do. They give us homework twice a week and we have a review test every week. That's kind of annoying but I guess I can kinda understand because we are in the medical field. & another thing is in the beginning, I felt very uncomfortable in my class only because everyone there was a young mother and I felt out of place. I felt like I didn't belong because looking at the people around me, I felt the youngest and the baby. Everytime someone would be like "little amy" like i'm a little kid or something.. SIGH I guess I'll just suck it up until July.
Situation with me & him? It's really good! I like the changes that he's making for me. Last night, we had a talk. And he said one thing that made me kind of look back and think for a minute. "You might look at us like another one of your relationships, but you're more special to me than you think." I had a bitter-sweet feeling about that comment. I guess I can kinda agree half & half on that. Only because I don't want to be hurt or walked all over. Therefore, even though we've been together for a whole year.. there's still some things I don't feel comfortable with. So I tend to hold back and shut him out. But I do care for him. My feelings haven't changed for him, it's just that I'm not letting him see that weaker light of me again. I see us going somewhere though, I just don't know where yet.
Lately, things have been pretty smooth. Needless to say I'm doing kinda "eh" in school. I skipped out on the 2nd and 3rd day, and I did it again yday because I felt LAZY. Not gonna happen today. I'm gonna make sure I get my butt to class if that's the last thing I do. They give us homework twice a week and we have a review test every week. That's kind of annoying but I guess I can kinda understand because we are in the medical field. & another thing is in the beginning, I felt very uncomfortable in my class only because everyone there was a young mother and I felt out of place. I felt like I didn't belong because looking at the people around me, I felt the youngest and the baby. Everytime someone would be like "little amy" like i'm a little kid or something.. SIGH I guess I'll just suck it up until July.
Situation with me & him? It's really good! I like the changes that he's making for me. Last night, we had a talk. And he said one thing that made me kind of look back and think for a minute. "You might look at us like another one of your relationships, but you're more special to me than you think." I had a bitter-sweet feeling about that comment. I guess I can kinda agree half & half on that. Only because I don't want to be hurt or walked all over. Therefore, even though we've been together for a whole year.. there's still some things I don't feel comfortable with. So I tend to hold back and shut him out. But I do care for him. My feelings haven't changed for him, it's just that I'm not letting him see that weaker light of me again. I see us going somewhere though, I just don't know where yet.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Relax
Finally the weekend is here! Now I can finally sleep and not worry about anything.. NOT.
School has been sucking the life out of me. Even though I haven't attended the 2nd and 3rd day of class. I only went to the 1st class. & what's funny is that I feel it's okay to skip? Maybe, I'm not in the "school" state of mind. I'm debating between whether it's just me NOT WANTING to go to school or maybe I'm not in the RIGHT school because I'm not comfortable with the environment. Sigh, well whichever it is I only have this weekend and a couple days to think about so I don't make the wrong mistake.
With work, yesterday was my last day. I mean I do like working there but I don't think I can work and go to school at the same time. So therefore, I chose school. & then when I told him he got upset with me! WTF? Isn't it supposed to be my decision? I remember him distinctly saying to me, "work or school" and awhile back it was work but now I'm picking school. I just feel like he doesn't want me to go back or just stick by work because the economy is bad. I guess it's true? But did he really expect me to work there forever?
Speaking of which, our anniversary was a couple days ago. He got me a pink mini hp laptop and I got him an engine intake lol. I love how we go all out when we buy eachother gifts. And me? I LOVE SURPRISES! I found it sweet that he took the time to write me a long note also. Knowing him, he barely writes notes. He prefers "receiving" notes. We ended up eating a lobster&crab dinner along with some champagne and hotpot on the side. But overall, I guess I'm just happy to see this little change take place in him.
Well I guess that's all there is to rant about. Everything else has been quite dandy LOL. Okays, I'm off. Later kids [;
School has been sucking the life out of me. Even though I haven't attended the 2nd and 3rd day of class. I only went to the 1st class. & what's funny is that I feel it's okay to skip? Maybe, I'm not in the "school" state of mind. I'm debating between whether it's just me NOT WANTING to go to school or maybe I'm not in the RIGHT school because I'm not comfortable with the environment. Sigh, well whichever it is I only have this weekend and a couple days to think about so I don't make the wrong mistake.
With work, yesterday was my last day. I mean I do like working there but I don't think I can work and go to school at the same time. So therefore, I chose school. & then when I told him he got upset with me! WTF? Isn't it supposed to be my decision? I remember him distinctly saying to me, "work or school" and awhile back it was work but now I'm picking school. I just feel like he doesn't want me to go back or just stick by work because the economy is bad. I guess it's true? But did he really expect me to work there forever?
Speaking of which, our anniversary was a couple days ago. He got me a pink mini hp laptop and I got him an engine intake lol. I love how we go all out when we buy eachother gifts. And me? I LOVE SURPRISES! I found it sweet that he took the time to write me a long note also. Knowing him, he barely writes notes. He prefers "receiving" notes. We ended up eating a lobster&crab dinner along with some champagne and hotpot on the side. But overall, I guess I'm just happy to see this little change take place in him.
Well I guess that's all there is to rant about. Everything else has been quite dandy LOL. Okays, I'm off. Later kids [;
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Calling My Angel
I really should be getting dressed right now for work, yet I'm sitting here blogging before I leave LOL. Ughh, I'm really dreading today because it's the FIRST DAY of school! Honestly, I hate school with a passion. I'm not the school type that's one reason why I'm going to Everest in the first place. 10 mths & I'm done! And that's also why I took a yr break right after I graduated. Everyone I know is so into school and to me it's like a drag.. I just don't know.
Anyways, tomorrow is our ONE YEAR anniversary. I wonder what he's gonna get me -cheese- I love gifts LOL. He asked me yday what I would want but my answer was "surprise me." I don't wanna tell him what I want cuz that kinda makes it seem like he HAS to get me something. I don't want something I gotta tell him, I rather him get me what he likes instead. It's been a yr & plus the fact that I do kinda live with him part time, he should know me by now hahas.
I also started thinking about my 21st bday already. Hmm, I wonder if I should throw a huge party or to getaway with jz me & him somewhere..?
Well, speaking of him I do notice some changes ever since he called me back. I guess he does realize I treat him & take care of him so good. Even his parents and his grandparents think so [: I also see a different side of him. A more mature, responsible young fellow. LOL did i just say fellow? But yeh, I love seeing him sitting there stressing about a HW assignment while I'm sitting there watching my reality shows. It jst proves he doesn't wanna be a square and actually wants to get somewhere in life. On another note, he's been taking this class called "Family Violence," funny that class is good for him. Finally admitted that he is A LITTLE violent and abusive. "First step is admitting!" LOL. Good thing I don't see that side anymore.
So yes, everythings just dandy. Guess I should be getting ready now. Laterss.
Anyways, tomorrow is our ONE YEAR anniversary. I wonder what he's gonna get me -cheese- I love gifts LOL. He asked me yday what I would want but my answer was "surprise me." I don't wanna tell him what I want cuz that kinda makes it seem like he HAS to get me something. I don't want something I gotta tell him, I rather him get me what he likes instead. It's been a yr & plus the fact that I do kinda live with him part time, he should know me by now hahas.
I also started thinking about my 21st bday already. Hmm, I wonder if I should throw a huge party or to getaway with jz me & him somewhere..?
Well, speaking of him I do notice some changes ever since he called me back. I guess he does realize I treat him & take care of him so good. Even his parents and his grandparents think so [: I also see a different side of him. A more mature, responsible young fellow. LOL did i just say fellow? But yeh, I love seeing him sitting there stressing about a HW assignment while I'm sitting there watching my reality shows. It jst proves he doesn't wanna be a square and actually wants to get somewhere in life. On another note, he's been taking this class called "Family Violence," funny that class is good for him. Finally admitted that he is A LITTLE violent and abusive. "First step is admitting!" LOL. Good thing I don't see that side anymore.
So yes, everythings just dandy. Guess I should be getting ready now. Laterss.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
How Conniving..
I find myself to trust the best liars on the planet. & now that I think about it, I'm just being way too modest and I have been way too nice. Thanks to certain people, I'm putting my guard back up to "friends" I now view as acquaintances.
I just thought it was fucked up. How this one female I usually talk to for advice and all that shit would end up betraying me. And the funny thing is when I call her out for her lies she still feels the need to deny it? Why can't people just tell the truth? Honestly, I can't stress it even more that in this world, females can be so conniving and shady. I don't like it at all.
So on that note, I kinda wanna congratulate myself because through the past 5 years, I've still remained close with my ride or dies. I would be nothing without them and my family. It's pretty hard for me to trust females nowadays, seeing that this has happened.
Ugh, normally I'll add a video with my blog but w.e. I'm calling it a night.
I just thought it was fucked up. How this one female I usually talk to for advice and all that shit would end up betraying me. And the funny thing is when I call her out for her lies she still feels the need to deny it? Why can't people just tell the truth? Honestly, I can't stress it even more that in this world, females can be so conniving and shady. I don't like it at all.
So on that note, I kinda wanna congratulate myself because through the past 5 years, I've still remained close with my ride or dies. I would be nothing without them and my family. It's pretty hard for me to trust females nowadays, seeing that this has happened.
Ugh, normally I'll add a video with my blog but w.e. I'm calling it a night.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Algebra
Okayss so I'm up bright and early about to get ready for work. Everything has been going really smooth and I just love it. Last night, me and the boyfriend had such a tasty lobster/crab dinner at the house. It's been awhile since I've eaten seafood besides sushi of course! We also went shopping for more kitchen and bathroom supplies nd a lot of groceries. Sometimes I feel like we're already married LOL. I mean come to think of it, we've already met eachother's parents nd family members. SO what's next?? YOU TELL ME LOL. jz keddinggg.
So with school, yeh I'm definitely going. It's too late to back out now haha. I had an appt yday with my financial advisor to finish up everything so now everything is set. And I start orientation tomorrow! I think the only thing that's overwhelming is the fact that I'm ACTUALLY going. It's been a year or so that I have been out of school and I just been so used to the "working" lifestyle. But no worries! Because in july `10, I will graduate from school with my med assistant certificate and CONTINUE that "working" lifestyle, which I have become so used to.
Hmm, one more wk and it will be our ONE YEAR anniversary. It has been quite a journey. I wonder what he got me hahas. I already have a little surprise in store nd WTH! It's on a wednesday.. where I have my 3rd day of school. Should I skip a day? I do not know!! We'll see how things go?
Okie dokiee, this was just a little mini blog before work. Time to get ready & stack some moolah [;
So with school, yeh I'm definitely going. It's too late to back out now haha. I had an appt yday with my financial advisor to finish up everything so now everything is set. And I start orientation tomorrow! I think the only thing that's overwhelming is the fact that I'm ACTUALLY going. It's been a year or so that I have been out of school and I just been so used to the "working" lifestyle. But no worries! Because in july `10, I will graduate from school with my med assistant certificate and CONTINUE that "working" lifestyle, which I have become so used to.
Hmm, one more wk and it will be our ONE YEAR anniversary. It has been quite a journey. I wonder what he got me hahas. I already have a little surprise in store nd WTH! It's on a wednesday.. where I have my 3rd day of school. Should I skip a day? I do not know!! We'll see how things go?
Okie dokiee, this was just a little mini blog before work. Time to get ready & stack some moolah [;
Monday, September 21, 2009
I'm Good
Continuing..
Ok so I didn't get to finish blogging yday since I was too caught up watching Tool Academy. I swear reality tv shows have taken over my tv life haha.
Anywho, so the love life has been better. Funny because I thought there was no hope left prior to what happened tht day but I guess it's true. I have made an impact on him in some way or the other.
The wkend was coming along nd we haven't talked for 3 days. I was starting to get a little iffy about us. I ended up getting dolled up nd heading down to one of my girl Ashley's crib so we can have a ladies night w my other girl Hazel. Jz as I'm arriving at Ashleys, I receive a txt from him saying "be good this wkend." I found it really surprising bc tht was a gesture tht he's still concerned w what I'm doing. So it kinda made me smile reading that txt. Then after a few mins, I get a txt from his mom! Wth LOL. And she goes, "has he talked to yu yet?" and im like, hmm whts going on here??
Anywys, I'm hanging w my ladies; we're jz talking abt our guys nd we were getting ready to go out but not for another hour or so. Out of the blue, he calls me nd asks what im doing. I wasn't really surprised because it's the weekend so he jz doesn't want me doing anything stupid. Idk, I guess we start talking for a little nd then he asks to see me. I mean I am having a ladies night, so I didn't want to ditch out on my girls but they insisted for me to "follow my heart." Corny.. Lmao jk.
Me and the ladies are jz sitting around talking; I forgot that I left my phone on silent. The next time I checked it I had 9missed calls from him. Shocker?? He never called me tht much before. I called him back nd I guess he was back home from driving around. He was on his way to come nd get me but of course I didn't knw because my phone was on silent -.- but I thought it was really cute when I found out from his mom he was taking care of Nina that night. And he asked his grandma to watch her so he can come get me. AWW haha (;
Okays, so I'm gonna fast forward a little. Once I get to his house, he is standing at the far end of the room w his arms wide open. I should be mad at him really, so of course I jz stand there with my arms crossed and give him tht "wht is it" look. We ended up talking about US (which is good bc he usually changes the subject when i bring it up) He told me how he missed me and realized he made a mistake.
To be honest, I never really seen this side of him before but I'm really glad that I did. From what I heard, his grandma was telling his mom that she really likes me nd no other girl will put up w him but me, so he needs to appreciate me. It's true, yeh he can find another girl who looks better than me but he WON'T find one that will deal w him and do so much for him like I have. I know there's many assumptions nd this and that about him, but I'm seeing a really good change in him. I also heard about a party in Lynn but he didn't go to spend his wkend with me. How cute lol.
So yes, thats how my love life has been. From down in the dumps to a shooting star. What a gay comparison LOL. Well I'm glad we have a better understanding of eachother nd he's more appreciative. Finally, I can stop pondering and wondering about where we stand. Well, I'm up pretty early. I have work in an hour! Sigh.. Guess I'ma head back to bed. Laters (;
Ok so I didn't get to finish blogging yday since I was too caught up watching Tool Academy. I swear reality tv shows have taken over my tv life haha.
Anywho, so the love life has been better. Funny because I thought there was no hope left prior to what happened tht day but I guess it's true. I have made an impact on him in some way or the other.
The wkend was coming along nd we haven't talked for 3 days. I was starting to get a little iffy about us. I ended up getting dolled up nd heading down to one of my girl Ashley's crib so we can have a ladies night w my other girl Hazel. Jz as I'm arriving at Ashleys, I receive a txt from him saying "be good this wkend." I found it really surprising bc tht was a gesture tht he's still concerned w what I'm doing. So it kinda made me smile reading that txt. Then after a few mins, I get a txt from his mom! Wth LOL. And she goes, "has he talked to yu yet?" and im like, hmm whts going on here??
Anywys, I'm hanging w my ladies; we're jz talking abt our guys nd we were getting ready to go out but not for another hour or so. Out of the blue, he calls me nd asks what im doing. I wasn't really surprised because it's the weekend so he jz doesn't want me doing anything stupid. Idk, I guess we start talking for a little nd then he asks to see me. I mean I am having a ladies night, so I didn't want to ditch out on my girls but they insisted for me to "follow my heart." Corny.. Lmao jk.
Me and the ladies are jz sitting around talking; I forgot that I left my phone on silent. The next time I checked it I had 9missed calls from him. Shocker?? He never called me tht much before. I called him back nd I guess he was back home from driving around. He was on his way to come nd get me but of course I didn't knw because my phone was on silent -.- but I thought it was really cute when I found out from his mom he was taking care of Nina that night. And he asked his grandma to watch her so he can come get me. AWW haha (;
Okays, so I'm gonna fast forward a little. Once I get to his house, he is standing at the far end of the room w his arms wide open. I should be mad at him really, so of course I jz stand there with my arms crossed and give him tht "wht is it" look. We ended up talking about US (which is good bc he usually changes the subject when i bring it up) He told me how he missed me and realized he made a mistake.
To be honest, I never really seen this side of him before but I'm really glad that I did. From what I heard, his grandma was telling his mom that she really likes me nd no other girl will put up w him but me, so he needs to appreciate me. It's true, yeh he can find another girl who looks better than me but he WON'T find one that will deal w him and do so much for him like I have. I know there's many assumptions nd this and that about him, but I'm seeing a really good change in him. I also heard about a party in Lynn but he didn't go to spend his wkend with me. How cute lol.
So yes, thats how my love life has been. From down in the dumps to a shooting star. What a gay comparison LOL. Well I'm glad we have a better understanding of eachother nd he's more appreciative. Finally, I can stop pondering and wondering about where we stand. Well, I'm up pretty early. I have work in an hour! Sigh.. Guess I'ma head back to bed. Laters (;
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Whatcha Say
Been awhile since I updated, only because I don't always have access to internet besides my SK LX09. But on the UP SIDE, i finally figured out how to use mobile blogging! Now I can jz blog on my phone and it'll automatically post (:
SOOO let's see whats been up with me? I've been feeling like shit for the past couple days to be honest. I felt as if the love & school situation was backing out on me. I'll start with the love part. Just when everything was okay, (well at least I thought it was), things started getting so out of proportion over such a small thing. & yes I felt like I lost in the battle because there was not much I could do. And it sucked for the last couple days because I was so deeply in love with him and I felt like I lost him over a small fight. At tht point, I was doing all tht I could to keep my mind off him but it was SO HARD. Everything, I mean EVERYTHING around me reminded me of him. Especially, all of the good times we had and it jz made me tear up like a little girl. Even when I was at work, whenever i had a break I wud run straight to the bathroom and cry my eyes out until my nose was red like rudolph the reindeer.. lol. Idk it jz sucked balls.
Then with the school situation.. Well it's really up to me whether I want to go or not. I just don't know if I'm leading myself the right way. But then again, I do want to go into the medical field and hopefully work my way up from a measly medical assistant onto a neo-natal nurse! When I think about it, I just think I'm downright lazy LOL. My schedule will be from monday-thursday 6 to 10pm >.< nd then I also got work in the morning on the wkdays from 11 to 3pm. I guess it's doable but I'm starting to worry about being stuck nd walking through the snow in the wintertime. GAY lol. But then again, I'll graduate in July so it'll all be worth it right??
SOO back to reality, my life hasn't sucked tht bad LOL. But I'll continue this in a bit cus TOOL ACADEMY is on LOL.
To be continued...
SOOO let's see whats been up with me? I've been feeling like shit for the past couple days to be honest. I felt as if the love & school situation was backing out on me. I'll start with the love part. Just when everything was okay, (well at least I thought it was), things started getting so out of proportion over such a small thing. & yes I felt like I lost in the battle because there was not much I could do. And it sucked for the last couple days because I was so deeply in love with him and I felt like I lost him over a small fight. At tht point, I was doing all tht I could to keep my mind off him but it was SO HARD. Everything, I mean EVERYTHING around me reminded me of him. Especially, all of the good times we had and it jz made me tear up like a little girl. Even when I was at work, whenever i had a break I wud run straight to the bathroom and cry my eyes out until my nose was red like rudolph the reindeer.. lol. Idk it jz sucked balls.
Then with the school situation.. Well it's really up to me whether I want to go or not. I just don't know if I'm leading myself the right way. But then again, I do want to go into the medical field and hopefully work my way up from a measly medical assistant onto a neo-natal nurse! When I think about it, I just think I'm downright lazy LOL. My schedule will be from monday-thursday 6 to 10pm >.< nd then I also got work in the morning on the wkdays from 11 to 3pm. I guess it's doable but I'm starting to worry about being stuck nd walking through the snow in the wintertime. GAY lol. But then again, I'll graduate in July so it'll all be worth it right??
SOO back to reality, my life hasn't sucked tht bad LOL. But I'll continue this in a bit cus TOOL ACADEMY is on LOL.
To be continued...
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Glide for Me
Wow it's been awhile since I blogged. Too bad I can't really blog on my sidekick or else I woulda done that everyday.
Well for one, things have been looking pretty good for me. With my job situation, I finally got hired as a cashier for some food business. Funny thing is, it takes place in a truck. Kinda like an ice cream truck but in this case it's run by asian people and I get paid in cash so I guess it's one of those under-the-table jobs. I'm not complaining because the job is paying me good and I don't have another job anyways.
& with the boyfriend? Me and him have been getting closer ever since we took the trip to Vegas. Yes, I paid for our tickets so that he can have a good time. I'm such a great girlfriend aren't I? And we already talked about what we would do for my 21st. Maybe take a cruise somewhere (: Hmm, I dunno I think our relationship has improved for the better.
I guess I'm pretty content with where I am. Buttt one thing I needa get going with is school. I already signed up and all that but I gotta go back to Everest to finish talking to my financial advisor. It's been a week and they preobably thought I changed my mind which I don't want to do. I know that if I don't go back this year, it's a sign that I'm not going back AT ALL.
There's also family. I haven't seen my mom in a couple months, and I'm hoping to see her maybe around thanksgiving to celebrate the holiday. If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't be here able to type this blog right now. And I miss my little brothers and my sister. Sigh, I wonder what they're up to right now?
Okay, well I guess that's all I had to say.. for now. Let's end it with the song that's been stuck in my head for the past 2 weeks!
Well for one, things have been looking pretty good for me. With my job situation, I finally got hired as a cashier for some food business. Funny thing is, it takes place in a truck. Kinda like an ice cream truck but in this case it's run by asian people and I get paid in cash so I guess it's one of those under-the-table jobs. I'm not complaining because the job is paying me good and I don't have another job anyways.
& with the boyfriend? Me and him have been getting closer ever since we took the trip to Vegas. Yes, I paid for our tickets so that he can have a good time. I'm such a great girlfriend aren't I? And we already talked about what we would do for my 21st. Maybe take a cruise somewhere (: Hmm, I dunno I think our relationship has improved for the better.
I guess I'm pretty content with where I am. Buttt one thing I needa get going with is school. I already signed up and all that but I gotta go back to Everest to finish talking to my financial advisor. It's been a week and they preobably thought I changed my mind which I don't want to do. I know that if I don't go back this year, it's a sign that I'm not going back AT ALL.
There's also family. I haven't seen my mom in a couple months, and I'm hoping to see her maybe around thanksgiving to celebrate the holiday. If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't be here able to type this blog right now. And I miss my little brothers and my sister. Sigh, I wonder what they're up to right now?
Okay, well I guess that's all I had to say.. for now. Let's end it with the song that's been stuck in my head for the past 2 weeks!
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Beautiful
Soo this is a random blog. I don't even know what I'm gonna blog about but whatever LOL.
So today I actually got off my butt and woke up hella early with Ms. Kathy. We woke up hella early so that she can go to Bunker Hill and fix her schedule. And I also got some info on the school along with an app to see if I wanna go there. Hmm, I'm really wondering which school I should go to.. I'm still waiting for mi madre to send me her tax shizz so I can give it to Everest. Yeh, I don't think I mentioned that I could possibly be going to Everest Institute to study for medical assisting. But with that note, with the financial aid situation, my best bet would be Bunker Hill. Plus I heard that madd asians go there LOL. Just kidding. I don't really care about what type of people there are, but I needa make a quick decision before school starts up again.
After that I guess we went job-hunting. I would say it went pretty well since we brought our resumes and came pretty prepared. I absolutely HATE it when places be like "We're always accepting applications." Dude, I'm asking if you hiring not if you accepting. Dipshits. But yeh, hopefully me && Kathy get some calls for interviews b'cuz we really NEED jobs!! LOL.
Ok um, what else.. I'm hungry. I'm gonna go grab some buffalo wings haha. See yaaaaa, lets end it with a vid (;
So today I actually got off my butt and woke up hella early with Ms. Kathy. We woke up hella early so that she can go to Bunker Hill and fix her schedule. And I also got some info on the school along with an app to see if I wanna go there. Hmm, I'm really wondering which school I should go to.. I'm still waiting for mi madre to send me her tax shizz so I can give it to Everest. Yeh, I don't think I mentioned that I could possibly be going to Everest Institute to study for medical assisting. But with that note, with the financial aid situation, my best bet would be Bunker Hill. Plus I heard that madd asians go there LOL. Just kidding. I don't really care about what type of people there are, but I needa make a quick decision before school starts up again.
After that I guess we went job-hunting. I would say it went pretty well since we brought our resumes and came pretty prepared. I absolutely HATE it when places be like "We're always accepting applications." Dude, I'm asking if you hiring not if you accepting. Dipshits. But yeh, hopefully me && Kathy get some calls for interviews b'cuz we really NEED jobs!! LOL.
Ok um, what else.. I'm hungry. I'm gonna go grab some buffalo wings haha. See yaaaaa, lets end it with a vid (;
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Im Back
Haven't updated in awhile! Soo where do I start? I guess right now I can honestly say that I'm feeling pretty content. I been feeling pretty settled in at my new place. The only thing that I still need is a part time job. It doesn't have to be a crazy paying job, but I do miss that feeling of making your own money and getting that paycheck every week.
I also recently signed up for school! I'm looking to be in the medical field. In the future I would love to become a neo-natal nurse at the hospital but right now I'm taking baby steps, so I'm going to train to be a medical assistant for now. On the other hand, I'm also looking to get a backup job to fall back on, such as getting my nail license. If worse came to worse, I can always do that if the medical thing doesn't work out. SOO 2 careers at hand in a period of 2 yrs! Sounds like a plan XD
With my love situation, maybe I'm being a little too nice. Its hard for me to let go of something that I put so much effort into. But lately, I feel as if we are going along different roads. He says I could be the one, yet I feel that it's all talk. Actions speak louder than words. At times when we're at our best we are SOO good. But when we fight it's horrible. And I don't know if I'm still by his side for the wrong reasons, but it's just something there.. Like a little ray of hope telling me that it'll be worth it. Sigh. Sometimes you can't help but wonder.
On another note, it's kind of strange having random people I don't know msging me on FB or MS. Why is it that I have so many stalkers && what is it about me that people want to know so much about?? It's kinda creepy. I'm thinking of changing my number LOL.
I also recently signed up for school! I'm looking to be in the medical field. In the future I would love to become a neo-natal nurse at the hospital but right now I'm taking baby steps, so I'm going to train to be a medical assistant for now. On the other hand, I'm also looking to get a backup job to fall back on, such as getting my nail license. If worse came to worse, I can always do that if the medical thing doesn't work out. SOO 2 careers at hand in a period of 2 yrs! Sounds like a plan XD
With my love situation, maybe I'm being a little too nice. Its hard for me to let go of something that I put so much effort into. But lately, I feel as if we are going along different roads. He says I could be the one, yet I feel that it's all talk. Actions speak louder than words. At times when we're at our best we are SOO good. But when we fight it's horrible. And I don't know if I'm still by his side for the wrong reasons, but it's just something there.. Like a little ray of hope telling me that it'll be worth it. Sigh. Sometimes you can't help but wonder.
On another note, it's kind of strange having random people I don't know msging me on FB or MS. Why is it that I have so many stalkers && what is it about me that people want to know so much about?? It's kinda creepy. I'm thinking of changing my number LOL.
Monday, July 13, 2009
Where Am I?
Hmm so lately things have been getting back on track ;]
I feel as if everything is going back to the way I want it to. Like my username, I'm gonna be MIA for a lil while. Sometimes it's better to stay on the dl to keep yourself out of trouble and drama lol. The only thing that is still not going my way is the job situation. It's so hard to find one and when I do, my interview sucks -.-
Maybe thats my problem..
Anyways, with that other situation I'm giving it one last try. I know there's probably gonna be disagreements with my friends and my decision but it is MY DECISION. I know my girls are just looking out for me but if it doesn't work this time around then move on right??
On another note, I need to go tanning again. I already went once with Ashley but I didn't get dark enough. I think I'm gonna go 3 more times like I planned with 3 of my different girls LOL. Too bad we couldn't all go at once since they don't get along ;P. Okays, well I'ma end it with a video like I always do.
I feel as if everything is going back to the way I want it to. Like my username, I'm gonna be MIA for a lil while. Sometimes it's better to stay on the dl to keep yourself out of trouble and drama lol. The only thing that is still not going my way is the job situation. It's so hard to find one and when I do, my interview sucks -.-
Maybe thats my problem..
Anyways, with that other situation I'm giving it one last try. I know there's probably gonna be disagreements with my friends and my decision but it is MY DECISION. I know my girls are just looking out for me but if it doesn't work this time around then move on right??
On another note, I need to go tanning again. I already went once with Ashley but I didn't get dark enough. I think I'm gonna go 3 more times like I planned with 3 of my different girls LOL. Too bad we couldn't all go at once since they don't get along ;P. Okays, well I'ma end it with a video like I always do.
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Fool For You
I must've been so crazy to beleive I was the one who could change you. I guess I was wrong. So many tears and lies I had to go through, and what do I do? I still stick up for you. Regardless of how many rumors fly back and forth, I stuck by with you to the end. And what do you do, you shatter my heart to pieces. I don't know if I can even cry anymore. I feel so fukcin betrayed. Never have I been so hurt like this before in my life. I feel like my heart got ripped out and stepped all over. Sighh. What happened to changing and being honest with eachother. It just sucks. Maybe I'm the one to blame? I let you do this to me and yet I still stayed as if I didn't know the truth. Love is blind. It can make you so stupid. And it's got me wondering, was what we had all fake? Was I really tryna live in this fairy tale land? I feel so numb. I don't know if I can even shed another tear. It hurts the most knowing that the proof is right there. And still you can't be honest with me. So what am I to do. I really loved you. Its just tough and I'm not sure if I can trust guys anymore. Urghh. We'll see what happens. And I hope it was fuckin worth it.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
The Loneliness
The loneliness can be deadly. I dunno I feel extremely depressed for some reason. Maybe it's because I been staying home way too much for my own good or I am jobless. Why is it so hard to find a job? And when I do find one, it's always some crappy one -.- Very very sad. I think I should just go back to school or something. But at the same time I need money! Urghh, this is so frustrating!
On another note, today's my 9mth anniversary. Yet I feel like it's another day gone by. I guess its because we didn't do anything special. Sigh. Not in the mood, I'm gonna go fill up my tummy and hopefully that'll get me less bitchy.
On another note, today's my 9mth anniversary. Yet I feel like it's another day gone by. I guess its because we didn't do anything special. Sigh. Not in the mood, I'm gonna go fill up my tummy and hopefully that'll get me less bitchy.
Monday, June 29, 2009
Labels or Love
Sigh.. Lately things have been so stressful and shit to me. I'm currently looking for a job. Urghh, I hate this. It's so hard to find a job and even when you do get an interview, there's also chances someone else will get it. Madd gay man..
On another note, I've had a lot on my mind lately. Am I just stupid to realize it or can i not accept the truth. The truth will blow up in my face eventually. I just wish things wouldn't be so hard and complicated. Maybe it's my fault too, but then again. I don't know. I hate rumors and gossip PERIOD.
I guess I have come to that point where you don't care anymore and just live the days as it goes by. I used to get so worked up about everything but now I'm just going towards that Nicki Minaj attitude. If you don't trust too much then you won't get disappointed or let down. Thats kind of the way I see it nowadays. But shit happens. I'm just gonna go with the flow until it's no longer here. Deuces.
On another note, I've had a lot on my mind lately. Am I just stupid to realize it or can i not accept the truth. The truth will blow up in my face eventually. I just wish things wouldn't be so hard and complicated. Maybe it's my fault too, but then again. I don't know. I hate rumors and gossip PERIOD.
I guess I have come to that point where you don't care anymore and just live the days as it goes by. I used to get so worked up about everything but now I'm just going towards that Nicki Minaj attitude. If you don't trust too much then you won't get disappointed or let down. Thats kind of the way I see it nowadays. But shit happens. I'm just gonna go with the flow until it's no longer here. Deuces.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Don't Trust Me
So today was a mellow day. I didn't really do much, cuz I woke up madd late "5pm" LOL. I sure as hell can sleep. Anyways, I'm still sick.. Wow it's been what about a week since I been sick, and it looks like it's extending to the next week. Guess it's cuz I'm so stubborn to take medicine.
Another thing is, people are so unappreciative. Not gonna say no names but I bet you know who you are. I swallow my pride for one second to try and be nice but NO, it's not fucking worth it. Especially when they making you feel like you did something wrong, like wtf. I'm doing you a favor here in case you didn't know, ungrateful hoe. Whatever, I'm over it.
Karma's a bitch, you'll get yours.
Another thing is, people are so unappreciative. Not gonna say no names but I bet you know who you are. I swallow my pride for one second to try and be nice but NO, it's not fucking worth it. Especially when they making you feel like you did something wrong, like wtf. I'm doing you a favor here in case you didn't know, ungrateful hoe. Whatever, I'm over it.
Karma's a bitch, you'll get yours.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Trust
I feel like a whole new person. Especially after last night. So many things I wanted to say has now been said. Its true, the feeling is "enriching." And I've come to realize that you shouldn't have to care about what others say. I have been so vulnerable in the past yet now I feel like such a stronger person. I believe that if you love someone, you should tell and show them. I've given myself to my soulmate and I trust that I have found him. I no longer care about anyone else but him. And that's the honest truth. 8 months might not seem like a long time, but the connection that we found is finally there. Don't ever feel like I will forget because I never will. After all that time, NOW we are on the same level. And I can't wait to spend my following days and start a new journey with you.
I love my boyfriend. <3
Heart, mind and soul.
And this entry is dedicated to him.
I love my boyfriend. <3
Heart, mind and soul.
And this entry is dedicated to him.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Supernova
Sooo I'm leaving in less than 5 days to California. I should be feeling extremely excited but... I'm not. I'm kinda used to living in Boston. Even though it's a little mini 2wk vacation, I feel like I'm leaving a load behind. But on the brighter side, I get to see my instant and extended family. I'm just hoping to have a good time over there with not alot of stress and not alot of thinking.
Hmm so there's a couple things I want to vent about. One is "friends." Where the hell are they when you need them? It's like I'm always letting myself be used to people I "trusted" and looked at as my friends. When they need me I'm always there but when I need them they are nowhere to be found. People are just selfish, apparently. It is what it is I guess.
Another subject would be relationships. I really can't stand people telling me who I should or shouldn't be with. Last time I checked it was MY life. I am very stubborn so even though it looks like I'm listening, I'm most likely tuning all that out. If I don't wanna talk about it, please drop it. Thanks.
Hmm so there's a couple things I want to vent about. One is "friends." Where the hell are they when you need them? It's like I'm always letting myself be used to people I "trusted" and looked at as my friends. When they need me I'm always there but when I need them they are nowhere to be found. People are just selfish, apparently. It is what it is I guess.
Another subject would be relationships. I really can't stand people telling me who I should or shouldn't be with. Last time I checked it was MY life. I am very stubborn so even though it looks like I'm listening, I'm most likely tuning all that out. If I don't wanna talk about it, please drop it. Thanks.
Friday, May 15, 2009
We Made You
Hmm so lately, I been working on looking for a job. Not too much luck lately but its okay, hopefully it'll come. Also, planning a trip to Cali in a week or soo.. I been away from my family for so long I think I'm losing it. Way back I was a naive little girl thinking I could survive on my own without their help, but I guess I was DEAD wrong. I need about all the help I can get. Sigh!
Anyways, things haven't been going my way. I feel like theres so much negativity in me that I need to let out. Soo one of my crazy brilliant ideas is to take up yoga classes. I know it sounds silly but I'm working on my flexibility and I need a new activity. Plus it will help me to relax and feel more positive.
I'm really extremely bored right now.. But I think I'ma end it here with my recent favorite song cuz I gotta get dressed and go job hunting with Ms. Connie-OLIS :]
Anyways, things haven't been going my way. I feel like theres so much negativity in me that I need to let out. Soo one of my crazy brilliant ideas is to take up yoga classes. I know it sounds silly but I'm working on my flexibility and I need a new activity. Plus it will help me to relax and feel more positive.
I'm really extremely bored right now.. But I think I'ma end it here with my recent favorite song cuz I gotta get dressed and go job hunting with Ms. Connie-OLIS :]
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Go Hard
So today was the first day I felt fabulous in awhile. Maybe because I got some things off my chest? Or maybe me and the boyfriend finally talked about that subject even though I try to avoid it as much as possible. I'm not gonna lie I'm dreading the days to come, but what can I do about it but to suck it up and face it? Better now than never right? So I'm just gonna stop being so paranoid. Because they say if you love someone you would trust them.
The highlight of the day was that me && Ms. Jessica had a really good talk about relationships. Basically, we talked about what we've gone through and it just made me feel so much better knowing that she understood ME. Even though she is still only a senior, she kind of reminds me of myself in a better light.
And I just have to say this, but it really bothers me when people tell me how to live my life. You're not me and you're not in my shoes so how can you say you understand when all you do is judge? Don't bring me down just because you're not doing so well with your shit. I'm so sorry that I went through more shit than you will ever know and you've been breezing by life. It just goes to show that some people are selfish and only care about their own happiness. Even when I was the one there for them through thick && thin. People are just fucked up...
The highlight of the day was that me && Ms. Jessica had a really good talk about relationships. Basically, we talked about what we've gone through and it just made me feel so much better knowing that she understood ME. Even though she is still only a senior, she kind of reminds me of myself in a better light.
And I just have to say this, but it really bothers me when people tell me how to live my life. You're not me and you're not in my shoes so how can you say you understand when all you do is judge? Don't bring me down just because you're not doing so well with your shit. I'm so sorry that I went through more shit than you will ever know and you've been breezing by life. It just goes to show that some people are selfish and only care about their own happiness. Even when I was the one there for them through thick && thin. People are just fucked up...
Friday, May 8, 2009
Spit in Your Face
So today I had a really crappy day at work. I was stuck on the register the whole time. Even though I didn't have to make any drinks, it was still aggravating. People need to learn how to speak english. And then this dumb bitch Jennifer who's complained about me for no reason before shows up again for her "Morgan special." Honestly, that drink ain't even all that good. I didn't even go on my break because everyone apparently loves boba drinks so much that they gotta buy 5 of the same damn drink. Working there has made me look at it quite differently. And finally, I had to walk up these million steps to get to the crib, which I hate because it feels like it never ends. Halfway and I'm already out of air lol. Well I'm done venting, so let me go back to my KK exercises.
3:20am!!
It's like 3 in the morning and I'm still up. Why am I still awake?? I can't sleep and I feel really sad for some reason.. Sighh just a lot of thoughts running through my mind. Tryna get my mind off everything.
3:20am!!
It's like 3 in the morning and I'm still up. Why am I still awake?? I can't sleep and I feel really sad for some reason.. Sighh just a lot of thoughts running through my mind. Tryna get my mind off everything.
It's My Time
So I decided to sign up for blog just so I can vent lol. I remember doing this with xanga but no one uses that anymore. Well I'm gonna cut this one short since I don't have much to say. But I will end it with a video :]
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