Trust

I feel like a whole new person. Especially after last night. So many things I wanted to say has now been said. Its true, the feeling is "enriching." And I've come to realize that you shouldn't have to care about what others say. I have been so vulnerable in the past yet now I feel like such a stronger person. I believe that if you love someone, you should tell and show them. I've given myself to my soulmate and I trust that I have found him. I no longer care about anyone else but him. And that's the honest truth. 8 months might not seem like a long time, but the connection that we found is finally there. Don't ever feel like I will forget because I never will. After all that time, NOW we are on the same level. And I can't wait to spend my following days and start a new journey with you.

I love my boyfriend. <3
Heart, mind and soul.

And this entry is dedicated to him.

Supernova

Sooo I'm leaving in less than 5 days to California. I should be feeling extremely excited but... I'm not. I'm kinda used to living in Boston. Even though it's a little mini 2wk vacation, I feel like I'm leaving a load behind. But on the brighter side, I get to see my instant and extended family. I'm just hoping to have a good time over there with not alot of stress and not alot of thinking.

Hmm so there's a couple things I want to vent about. One is "friends." Where the hell are they when you need them? It's like I'm always letting myself be used to people I "trusted" and looked at as my friends. When they need me I'm always there but when I need them they are nowhere to be found. People are just selfish, apparently. It is what it is I guess.

Another subject would be relationships. I really can't stand people telling me who I should or shouldn't be with. Last time I checked it was MY life. I am very stubborn so even though it looks like I'm listening, I'm most likely tuning all that out. If I don't wanna talk about it, please drop it. Thanks.

We Made You

Hmm so lately, I been working on looking for a job. Not too much luck lately but its okay, hopefully it'll come. Also, planning a trip to Cali in a week or soo.. I been away from my family for so long I think I'm losing it. Way back I was a naive little girl thinking I could survive on my own without their help, but I guess I was DEAD wrong. I need about all the help I can get. Sigh!

Anyways, things haven't been going my way. I feel like theres so much negativity in me that I need to let out. Soo one of my crazy brilliant ideas is to take up yoga classes. I know it sounds silly but I'm working on my flexibility and I need a new activity. Plus it will help me to relax and feel more positive.

I'm really extremely bored right now.. But I think I'ma end it here with my recent favorite song cuz I gotta get dressed and go job hunting with Ms. Connie-OLIS :]

Go Hard

So today was the first day I felt fabulous in awhile. Maybe because I got some things off my chest? Or maybe me and the boyfriend finally talked about that subject even though I try to avoid it as much as possible. I'm not gonna lie I'm dreading the days to come, but what can I do about it but to suck it up and face it? Better now than never right? So I'm just gonna stop being so paranoid. Because they say if you love someone you would trust them.

The highlight of the day was that me && Ms. Jessica had a really good talk about relationships. Basically, we talked about what we've gone through and it just made me feel so much better knowing that she understood ME. Even though she is still only a senior, she kind of reminds me of myself in a better light.

And I just have to say this, but it really bothers me when people tell me how to live my life. You're not me and you're not in my shoes so how can you say you understand when all you do is judge? Don't bring me down just because you're not doing so well with your shit. I'm so sorry that I went through more shit than you will ever know and you've been breezing by life. It just goes to show that some people are selfish and only care about their own happiness. Even when I was the one there for them through thick && thin. People are just fucked up...

Spit in Your Face

So today I had a really crappy day at work. I was stuck on the register the whole time. Even though I didn't have to make any drinks, it was still aggravating. People need to learn how to speak english. And then this dumb bitch Jennifer who's complained about me for no reason before shows up again for her "Morgan special." Honestly, that drink ain't even all that good. I didn't even go on my break because everyone apparently loves boba drinks so much that they gotta buy 5 of the same damn drink. Working there has made me look at it quite differently. And finally, I had to walk up these million steps to get to the crib, which I hate because it feels like it never ends. Halfway and I'm already out of air lol. Well I'm done venting, so let me go back to my KK exercises.



3:20am!!

It's like 3 in the morning and I'm still up. Why am I still awake?? I can't sleep and I feel really sad for some reason.. Sighh just a lot of thoughts running through my mind. Tryna get my mind off everything.

It's My Time

So I decided to sign up for blog just so I can vent lol. I remember doing this with xanga but no one uses that anymore. Well I'm gonna cut this one short since I don't have much to say. But I will end it with a video :]