Ao Mong Tinh Yeu

I'm gonna do something a lil different by posting a "vietnamese" song lols.

Okay so lately, my main focus has been school. I didn't go in any day last wk but this wk I showed up every single day. I had madd work to make up so technically, after that wk I CAN'T afford to miss any more days. Well class has been keeping me on my feet. I'm actually proud of myself for once knowing that I chose this field because for one, the medical field is VERY difficult. It's not easy and there's a lot of school involved. But I guess with me I'm taking the easy way out. I'm going monday-thursday every week until the end of July.

Well one thing that is making me a little worried right now is my right hand. Recently, I think it was monday, where I hit my hand really hard against the pole and then my hand started aching as hell. What scares me is that it starts to ache a lot everytime I use to much strength in that hand. And there is a slight bump on the side of my hand along the pinky. It feels like a bone sticking out or something.. Yes it sounds nasty but isn't as bad as it looks. I think I might've fractured my hand -.- So I gotta remember to call my doctors and schedule an appt with them. & it freaks me out because I was researchin online about how to fix it and it might require stitches or staples! Hopefully it won't result to that >.<

Anyways, with my close friend that I mentioned before.. We're talking now. Well she called me and acted as if nothing happened. And told me that she can't be mad at me forever... Um okay, but I didn't do anything wrong. Whatever, I'm not gonna sweat it and jz drop it. After all, I have known her for about 5 years and that's her personality.

On another note, me and him are doing pretty good. I know sometimes he can be a little paranoid about me going out. He was like "You're in a relationship right now so why would you try and jeopardize it." But that was while we were having this conversation that I'm not gonna get into.

Better Today

I am so fuckingg extremely pissed. Sigh! I hate it when people try to hold leverage over me and I can't do anything about it. It's just not fair. But whatever, shits in the past.

Anyhow, today is my aunt's birthday. But I didn't call her to wish her a good birthday or anything. Only because I'm still mad at her and what she did to me was fucked up! Who lies to their neice just to make her leave? Seriously, that shit was fucked up that I lost so much respect for her. W.e this was like 4 months ago but I hold grudges so.. Whatever happens happens.

On another note, I notice that everytime I check my account for my debit card, the numbers slowly get lower and lower. Definitely, needa job asap. I also needa go shopping soon for the winter season. Plus the holidays are coming soon. Well this blog was pretty pointless. I didn't really have much to say. Guess I'm off this.

Vanished

Morning! This is morning to me since I just woke up LOL.

Things have been decent for the most part. The other day his parents came by and knocked down the wall on our floor. Everything is much more spacious now, and I'm excited to rearrange our living space. Before everything was so cramped up.

Halloween is also around the corner! And I still don't have a costume yet. Sherry is selling 2 so if it comes down to it that I still don't have anything, I guess I'll just buy them from her. I was surprised that he wanted us to having matching costumes. As cheesy as it sounds.. LOL. But i love the idea. I guess I kinda assumed that we would be doing our own thing because when parties come around, he's usually with his boys. Well people change, times have changed (;

& lately I been online looking for jobs. I like the fact that I'm not working early in the morning anymore, BUT i don't like how my money is decreasing! I checked my emails and I have 3 people that are interested in interviewing me. We'll see how that goes because this pause in my cash flow.. well i'm not liking it >:O

I needa grab a bite to eat, so I'ma update laterr. PCE! lol

I Need A Savior

Soo notice how I didn't have a video in my previous blog? Well, that's because I couldn't find one lol.

Lately, things have been pretty smooth. Needless to say I'm doing kinda "eh" in school. I skipped out on the 2nd and 3rd day, and I did it again yday because I felt LAZY. Not gonna happen today. I'm gonna make sure I get my butt to class if that's the last thing I do. They give us homework twice a week and we have a review test every week. That's kind of annoying but I guess I can kinda understand because we are in the medical field. & another thing is in the beginning, I felt very uncomfortable in my class only because everyone there was a young mother and I felt out of place. I felt like I didn't belong because looking at the people around me, I felt the youngest and the baby. Everytime someone would be like "little amy" like i'm a little kid or something.. SIGH I guess I'll just suck it up until July.

Situation with me & him? It's really good! I like the changes that he's making for me. Last night, we had a talk. And he said one thing that made me kind of look back and think for a minute. "You might look at us like another one of your relationships, but you're more special to me than you think." I had a bitter-sweet feeling about that comment. I guess I can kinda agree half & half on that. Only because I don't want to be hurt or walked all over. Therefore, even though we've been together for a whole year.. there's still some things I don't feel comfortable with. So I tend to hold back and shut him out. But I do care for him. My feelings haven't changed for him, it's just that I'm not letting him see that weaker light of me again. I see us going somewhere though, I just don't know where yet.

Relax

Finally the weekend is here! Now I can finally sleep and not worry about anything.. NOT.

School has been sucking the life out of me. Even though I haven't attended the 2nd and 3rd day of class. I only went to the 1st class. & what's funny is that I feel it's okay to skip? Maybe, I'm not in the "school" state of mind. I'm debating between whether it's just me NOT WANTING to go to school or maybe I'm not in the RIGHT school because I'm not comfortable with the environment. Sigh, well whichever it is I only have this weekend and a couple days to think about so I don't make the wrong mistake.

With work, yesterday was my last day. I mean I do like working there but I don't think I can work and go to school at the same time. So therefore, I chose school. & then when I told him he got upset with me! WTF? Isn't it supposed to be my decision? I remember him distinctly saying to me, "work or school" and awhile back it was work but now I'm picking school. I just feel like he doesn't want me to go back or just stick by work because the economy is bad. I guess it's true? But did he really expect me to work there forever?

Speaking of which, our anniversary was a couple days ago. He got me a pink mini hp laptop and I got him an engine intake lol. I love how we go all out when we buy eachother gifts. And me? I LOVE SURPRISES! I found it sweet that he took the time to write me a long note also. Knowing him, he barely writes notes. He prefers "receiving" notes. We ended up eating a lobster&crab dinner along with some champagne and hotpot on the side. But overall, I guess I'm just happy to see this little change take place in him.

Well I guess that's all there is to rant about. Everything else has been quite dandy LOL. Okays, I'm off. Later kids [;