Calling My Angel

I really should be getting dressed right now for work, yet I'm sitting here blogging before I leave LOL. Ughh, I'm really dreading today because it's the FIRST DAY of school! Honestly, I hate school with a passion. I'm not the school type that's one reason why I'm going to Everest in the first place. 10 mths & I'm done! And that's also why I took a yr break right after I graduated. Everyone I know is so into school and to me it's like a drag.. I just don't know.

Anyways, tomorrow is our ONE YEAR anniversary. I wonder what he's gonna get me -cheese- I love gifts LOL. He asked me yday what I would want but my answer was "surprise me." I don't wanna tell him what I want cuz that kinda makes it seem like he HAS to get me something. I don't want something I gotta tell him, I rather him get me what he likes instead. It's been a yr & plus the fact that I do kinda live with him part time, he should know me by now hahas.

I also started thinking about my 21st bday already. Hmm, I wonder if I should throw a huge party or to getaway with jz me & him somewhere..?

Well, speaking of him I do notice some changes ever since he called me back. I guess he does realize I treat him & take care of him so good. Even his parents and his grandparents think so [: I also see a different side of him. A more mature, responsible young fellow. LOL did i just say fellow? But yeh, I love seeing him sitting there stressing about a HW assignment while I'm sitting there watching my reality shows. It jst proves he doesn't wanna be a square and actually wants to get somewhere in life. On another note, he's been taking this class called "Family Violence," funny that class is good for him. Finally admitted that he is A LITTLE violent and abusive. "First step is admitting!" LOL. Good thing I don't see that side anymore.

So yes, everythings just dandy. Guess I should be getting ready now. Laterss.

How Conniving..

I find myself to trust the best liars on the planet. & now that I think about it, I'm just being way too modest and I have been way too nice. Thanks to certain people, I'm putting my guard back up to "friends" I now view as acquaintances.

I just thought it was fucked up. How this one female I usually talk to for advice and all that shit would end up betraying me. And the funny thing is when I call her out for her lies she still feels the need to deny it? Why can't people just tell the truth? Honestly, I can't stress it even more that in this world, females can be so conniving and shady. I don't like it at all.

So on that note, I kinda wanna congratulate myself because through the past 5 years, I've still remained close with my ride or dies. I would be nothing without them and my family. It's pretty hard for me to trust females nowadays, seeing that this has happened.

Ugh, normally I'll add a video with my blog but w.e. I'm calling it a night.

Algebra

Okayss so I'm up bright and early about to get ready for work. Everything has been going really smooth and I just love it. Last night, me and the boyfriend had such a tasty lobster/crab dinner at the house. It's been awhile since I've eaten seafood besides sushi of course! We also went shopping for more kitchen and bathroom supplies nd a lot of groceries. Sometimes I feel like we're already married LOL. I mean come to think of it, we've already met eachother's parents nd family members. SO what's next?? YOU TELL ME LOL. jz keddinggg.

So with school, yeh I'm definitely going. It's too late to back out now haha. I had an appt yday with my financial advisor to finish up everything so now everything is set. And I start orientation tomorrow! I think the only thing that's overwhelming is the fact that I'm ACTUALLY going. It's been a year or so that I have been out of school and I just been so used to the "working" lifestyle. But no worries! Because in july `10, I will graduate from school with my med assistant certificate and CONTINUE that "working" lifestyle, which I have become so used to.

Hmm, one more wk and it will be our ONE YEAR anniversary. It has been quite a journey. I wonder what he got me hahas. I already have a little surprise in store nd WTH! It's on a wednesday.. where I have my 3rd day of school. Should I skip a day? I do not know!! We'll see how things go?

Okie dokiee, this was just a little mini blog before work. Time to get ready & stack some moolah [;

I'm Good

Continuing..

Ok so I didn't get to finish blogging yday since I was too caught up watching Tool Academy. I swear reality tv shows have taken over my tv life haha.

Anywho, so the love life has been better. Funny because I thought there was no hope left prior to what happened tht day but I guess it's true. I have made an impact on him in some way or the other.

The wkend was coming along nd we haven't talked for 3 days. I was starting to get a little iffy about us. I ended up getting dolled up nd heading down to one of my girl Ashley's crib so we can have a ladies night w my other girl Hazel. Jz as I'm arriving at Ashleys, I receive a txt from him saying "be good this wkend." I found it really surprising bc tht was a gesture tht he's still concerned w what I'm doing. So it kinda made me smile reading that txt. Then after a few mins, I get a txt from his mom! Wth LOL. And she goes, "has he talked to yu yet?" and im like, hmm whts going on here??

Anywys, I'm hanging w my ladies; we're jz talking abt our guys nd we were getting ready to go out but not for another hour or so. Out of the blue, he calls me nd asks what im doing. I wasn't really surprised because it's the weekend so he jz doesn't want me doing anything stupid. Idk, I guess we start talking for a little nd then he asks to see me. I mean I am having a ladies night, so I didn't want to ditch out on my girls but they insisted for me to "follow my heart." Corny.. Lmao jk.

Me and the ladies are jz sitting around talking; I forgot that I left my phone on silent. The next time I checked it I had 9missed calls from him. Shocker?? He never called me tht much before. I called him back nd I guess he was back home from driving around. He was on his way to come nd get me but of course I didn't knw because my phone was on silent -.- but I thought it was really cute when I found out from his mom he was taking care of Nina that night. And he asked his grandma to watch her so he can come get me. AWW haha (;

Okays, so I'm gonna fast forward a little. Once I get to his house, he is standing at the far end of the room w his arms wide open. I should be mad at him really, so of course I jz stand there with my arms crossed and give him tht "wht is it" look. We ended up talking about US (which is good bc he usually changes the subject when i bring it up) He told me how he missed me and realized he made a mistake.

To be honest, I never really seen this side of him before but I'm really glad that I did. From what I heard, his grandma was telling his mom that she really likes me nd no other girl will put up w him but me, so he needs to appreciate me. It's true, yeh he can find another girl who looks better than me but he WON'T find one that will deal w him and do so much for him like I have. I know there's many assumptions nd this and that about him, but I'm seeing a really good change in him. I also heard about a party in Lynn but he didn't go to spend his wkend with me. How cute lol.

So yes, thats how my love life has been. From down in the dumps to a shooting star. What a gay comparison LOL. Well I'm glad we have a better understanding of eachother nd he's more appreciative. Finally, I can stop pondering and wondering about where we stand. Well, I'm up pretty early. I have work in an hour! Sigh.. Guess I'ma head back to bed. Laters (;

Whatcha Say

Been awhile since I updated, only because I don't always have access to internet besides my SK LX09. But on the UP SIDE, i finally figured out how to use mobile blogging! Now I can jz blog on my phone and it'll automatically post (:

SOOO let's see whats been up with me? I've been feeling like shit for the past couple days to be honest. I felt as if the love & school situation was backing out on me. I'll start with the love part. Just when everything was okay, (well at least I thought it was), things started getting so out of proportion over such a small thing. & yes I felt like I lost in the battle because there was not much I could do. And it sucked for the last couple days because I was so deeply in love with him and I felt like I lost him over a small fight. At tht point, I was doing all tht I could to keep my mind off him but it was SO HARD. Everything, I mean EVERYTHING around me reminded me of him. Especially, all of the good times we had and it jz made me tear up like a little girl. Even when I was at work, whenever i had a break I wud run straight to the bathroom and cry my eyes out until my nose was red like rudolph the reindeer.. lol. Idk it jz sucked balls.

Then with the school situation.. Well it's really up to me whether I want to go or not. I just don't know if I'm leading myself the right way. But then again, I do want to go into the medical field and hopefully work my way up from a measly medical assistant onto a neo-natal nurse! When I think about it, I just think I'm downright lazy LOL. My schedule will be from monday-thursday 6 to 10pm >.< nd then I also got work in the morning on the wkdays from 11 to 3pm. I guess it's doable but I'm starting to worry about being stuck nd walking through the snow in the wintertime. GAY lol. But then again, I'll graduate in July so it'll all be worth it right??

SOO back to reality, my life hasn't sucked tht bad LOL. But I'll continue this in a bit cus TOOL ACADEMY is on LOL.

To be continued...