I Get Up

Hey everyone! Finally 2010 is here. New year, new start, new resolutions, new EVERYTHING. For me, this year is pretty important because it will determine how my life will turn out miles down the road. So I just wanted to vent about a couple things.

One, yes I jz got out of a very long and hard relationship. I know that in the previous entry, I might've said some negative things about him, but it was obviously because I was upset. We're still friends, and even through everything that's happened, I'd prefer that we stay friends than have no relation at all. Maybe it's just me. But I don't really like to kick people out of my life for good. They did come into my life for a reason, right?

Two, I have been spending alot of time with my closest friends and people I haven't seen for quite some time. It feels pretty good to be back in action actually. I guess I'll admit that I put my ex-boyfriend before my friends in a way, and that was probably the reason I felt this sort of "emptiness." But everyone makes mistakes, we live and we learn. And it makes me end every night with a smile, because my girls still love me regardless of what's happened, and I appreciate it and am so thankful to have them in my life. A lot of people change friends every year, but not me. I had the same girls for 5 years, and then meet new faces.

Three, I've been a little bi-polar the last couple days. One day I'll be excited and the next I find myself laying down reminiscing about my life, and feeling a little sadness.. I think it's because I'm glad to have a new start and start over everything in a whole different environment, seeing my family, and just basically getting all my shit together. But at the same time, I am a little sad that I'm leaving behind my friends. My whole life, I been raised here and living in Boston. So I know I will definitely be coming back every couple months or so to visit.

Four, I been stuck in a dilemma for the last whole week. And it's funny bc I haven't even done anything and yet I'm the one to blame.. -.- Shit happens for a reason though right?

Sigh, but yehs I guess that sums up everything I had to say. Well most of it I guess, I'm in a loss for words right now. But I hope everyone had a great New Years!